Have you, like me been trying to find the silver lining in all the worlds chaos and drama everyone has been in? Like EVERYONE, and I mean anyone and everyone I've been talking to, myself included, has had a pretty turmoil at one point or another this May. Everyone lately has been dealing with either health issues, breakups, plans backfiring, and setbacks like never before.
Now as I sit back on the once storm of my own drama and watch the dust begin to settle. I've dragged my limp, tired, and emotionally drained soul behind my laptop at JJbean after months of avoiding my blog. Feelings of irritation of not being inspired to write a single word, to now have them over flooding me to be written. Creativity coming out of whats felt like the rebirth of my dead old self and ready to share. So here is what I have learnt and felt the need to share with you all, because I know I can't be the only one feeling this.
Have you ever heard that most artists biggest inspirations come from muses or after periods of diving into apart of their shadow selves (darkest part of their being)? What happens when artists dive into this pool of seemingly heavy and unbearable mental, emotional or physical pain, hurt and well just crap really? Is that they come up from it all brighter then ever. They come back following the light of inspiration through the murky mud that weighted them down and give us some of the worlds most jaw dropping art. The rawness of their emotions or what they felt during these periods is placed into their masterpieces and as humans, we can relate so much more on a real not being scared to show the world where they had to come back from way. So much better than something that has been superficially made to please the mass. Not saying that kind of art doesn't have its purpose in our world as well. But the pieces I'm talking about are the ones where you see it for the first time and it pulls at your heartstrings so hard you grab at your chest clutching, or brings tears to your eyes without knowing until someone passes you a tissue. Well its because that artist has done what the darkness taught them, to find the light and you felt it on a soul to soul level.
The idea I'm trying to get across though is that as human beings we are meant to go through hardship, through shit, drama, physical, emotion, and mental pain. Shitty I know right? Little soul secret for you. Your soul decided to live here as a human and go through these trails for its souls own growth, so before you try and blame the universe have a chat with your soul first! There is a purpose I promise through the darkness and turmoil to all you're being dragged through. It's to teach us to break down the ego...again and again and again until we have broken through so far and our souls are pure light to shine brightly through without limitation. How else are we able to break down our egos unless we are challenged and broken. We've all allowed our egos to run the show lately, myself included and think that we are perfect and no longer need to improve... which of course is wrong! As my partner always says there is always room for improvement, and that we should always strive to grow. Where I balance him out on this, is that yes you always should be working to improve the self but you should also be in the present of how far you've come and know that you are perfect at this moment(even during the storm). Of course, strive for improvement but acknowledge where you are and what it took to get you there. I needed the balance of his statement that I was improving but to slow down and heal as well. With what I had been dealing with I had to give myself the present time to stop, heal, reevaluate and reconnect to my soul. Asking myself some hard questions on what and where, or how I want to follow my souls path. I couldn't do this until my whole world crashed down on my ego and make me realize that I was following my egos fears and not my souls calling. When the world crashes and the ego shushes finally, the soul shows whats most important to you. Showing you with new inspiration and ideas where to step next.
So please be kind on yourselves during this time, if you've gone through some pretty dark, crappy, or stuff that's shaken who you are. Take the time to heal, breath, and find out what your soul is asking you to change. If you can't figure it out right away, that's ok. Take the time to find the lesson, the light, or inspiration that wants to come through. If anything it might be to simply share your story. Like it was for me to help others know that there is a silver lining.
The definition of a Silver Lining is a hopeful or comforting prospect in the midst of difficulty.
Lastly here is what helps me through times like this:
- Exercising! Tip: try and switch up your routing this helps rewire the brain to think and move the body in different ways.
-Surround yourself around people that are like minded, and who are able to support you fully during your turmoil
-Ask for help, and allow them to help you! It's ok to ask for it when you need it because sometimes you can't do it all on your own
-Feel what you are feeling fully! Talk, cry, hysterically laugh, get upset (try not to get upset at others before asking yourself why you're upset), let yourself feel the emotions so they don't become trapped within the core of your being. If you're in public and feel like you're about to break down, take 3 deep breaths and ask yourself to wait to release them when you're in a more appropriate setting. But make sure you do! Don't forget to give yourself the time!
-Meditate, Walking meditation, Music Meditations, or simply be in silence. How ever you meditate...just do it!
-Write to yourself, to others (without giving it to them, burn it if it feels right), just write to let your mental and emotional side come out in a solid form. You're not crazy and you're entitled to all your thoughts, emotions, and everything in between, just make sure to take responsibility for your words.
Whatever you're going through please let these words of comfort after a full day in the hospital, being poked multiple times for blood work, a treatment from my osteopath, a last minuet flight from my mother, a shocked boyfriend, a barrial ceremony in a forest, tears that sometimes wont stop, help me get through my first miscarriage. Simple and little cliche but a reminder that "Everything happens for a reason."
Words from a your own healing White Witch